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sitting here literally typing up diagrams for the dynamics in hadys and. realizing my grasp on the canon characters are too flimsy for the fic im trying to write. like im gna have to comb through three (3) whole seasons and pick them all apart properly to feel satisfied in my development with them
#kijorambles#hadys#hit with the sudden realization as i try to explain noahs opinion on heather#that despite how much i love her i dont have#the strongest grasp on her. as a character??#i know what her arc is in simple terms and how she interacts with the cast#but i cant. fully delve into it?? beyond surface level observation#this probably has something to do with ummm not actually watching the show. completely#i watched island and action out of order skipping eps etc#wt was the only season i watched in full and even then i-#-binge watched it so hard that i missed key details to the Characters#but its looking like im going to actually sit down and rewatch these three#and like. mark down characterization#no fucking way am i actually going to take notes on Total Drama Circa 2009 for the sake of one (1) fanfiction#but unfortunately i am so Willing#sorry everyone hadys update postponed so i can write notes about the show like some kind of deranged lecture hall attendee
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it is so embarrassing to be a danganronpa fan who is tragically fascinated by all the most cringe characters. when your top ten characters of all time list contains nagito komaeda.... how do you live with that. how do you live with yourself. I'm not ashamed of it exactly but when a normal person like say, my roommate, watches me put up my large poster of him up over my bed in deafening silence.... how do you recover from that. please tell me because I really need to know
#I think the answer is to just live cringe and free#but I am unfortunately burdened by the greatest despair of all#and that is Caring What Other People Think Of Me#danganronpa#danganronpa 2#nagito komaeda#I tried so desperately to not like kokichi ouma too. but Im a weak willed cretin#and my love of deranged lunatics cannot be understated#I am cringe I am legion
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Can Hydra cure eczema?
If so I’ll gladly be your experiment as long as I don’t have to deal with eczema anymore.
I might be able to see what I could get done for that. Skin care is not my area but I have many sources and people I could see about your condition.
#Red Skull would be pleased#Unfortunately I am not so trustworthy#Just know that I won’t be giving you my full trust or anything#A willing experiment would be something though#Certainly#artemia#hail hydra#hydra#hydra’s head scientist#marvel#mcu#mcu rp#marvel mcu#marvel roleplay#hydra rp
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So Noah is openly being a zionist online... AGAIN. I'm seeing a lot of people wanting to leave the fandom- which I support, if you can drop this then you should. But if you're like me and it's not that simple, here are a couple rough tips that might help;
Pro-tip; instead of paying for Netflix and helping support genocide and the zionists in the cast/crew, cancel your subscription and send that money to charities that are bringing aid and resources into Gaza!
Pro-tip 2; buy fan content and nothing liscenced! Fan works are often better quality than the show- from drawings, to writing, to pins... it's worth the money and you aren't sending money to people openly supporting genocide and the murder of children!
Pro-tip 3; if you are going to continue taking part in fandom, like myself, do not do so in silence. Palestinians are being murdered and we can't pretend that it isn't happening simply because we have hyperfixations that we can't get rid of.
Pro-tip 4; join boycotts! Not only the monetary boycott of Netflix and Stranger Things, but- at least- the three main boycotts; McDonalds, Disney+ and Starbucks! There are many others, from Puma to Barclays to Booking.com to Pizza Hut to Burger King... None of these things are necessities and you can easily go without! Other options are probably cheaper and better quality too! It's a win-win!
Pro-tip 5; Go to protests if you can! Make your voice heard not only online but in person too! We have strength in numbers and we cannot lose the momentum we've barely started to build! Take direct action!
P.S. biggest fuck you to Noah Schnapp but also; Ross Duffer, Shawn Levy and Brett Gelman can suck the shit right out my ass <3
#stranger things#side not that I've lit never paid for netflix#unfortunately I've already paid for travel for that fucking stage show and I'm not willing to waste that money so :/#catch me taking photos of whatever merch I like and finding fan dupes though lmao#but again; fuck zionists. fuck them straight to the depths of whatever hell there is#and I'm going to sleep right after posting this so the potential fallout to this will be... uh... something#but I am kind of curious to see if anyone attacks me for continuing the way I am like I wasn't one of those who called noah out before this#but noah spreading isreali lies and zionist propaganda wasnt that big of deal until now I guess 👀#anyways free palestine and pirate stranger things 🏴☠️🖖 goodnight
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stray kid, u have a week to respond to my plead for a comeback announcement or you’ll stay locked up for life
#im being generous for one week. 24 hours would’ve been preferable and enough for me#but unfortunately i have lot of love so i am willing to stay patient for a lil bit longer#mp
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Hello Kind Soul 💕
I am trying to evacuate my family from Gaza to safe area to save our lives ASAP 🙏
I Ask if you could support us by share my blog and boost my campaign?
https://www.gofundme.com/f/Stand-With-AlBalawi-Family
If you are generous enough, you can donate any small contribution, it really helps ❤
Of course!
Anyone who can donate, please consider doing so! It looks like they're currently at just under halfway to their goal.
If you're unable to donate, please consider reblogging this so that it might reach someone who can! (And hey, maybe consider reblogging it even if you did!)
Wishing you the best; I don't generally pray, but I will keep you in mine moving forward.
Here's a photo of my cat to hopefully get this more traction (and so I can put this in more tags)
#asks#elbalawi#free palestine#palestine#palestine fundraiser#cats#cat photos#cat pictures#cats of tumblr#catblr#jay.jpg#sappho#my pets#unfortunately I don't have a bank account so all I can do is share the link for now. but hopefully I will be able to return soon with +#+something of more substance. as I've said on another blog here recently: if you're able to show me proof that you've donated here or to +#+any other palestinian relief/evacuation funds and can DM me your proof I am willing to do art for you in some fashion#or if you just want more photos of my cat? I will also leverage those. just whatever it takes to get money goin through these#any tag suggestions are also appreciated#fucked up that I feel like I need to include something in the body of the post to illicit interaction but. what else can i do?#jay.txt#cat#also yes the sign in the back does read ''ceasefire now'' if you can't quite make out enough to guess. i tried to find a photo of her where+#+it's in view; this is the best recent one#i don't know who designed it but i can provide a clearer photo if asked
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✨ weekend wip exposure club ✨
rules: post 7 sentences or a snippet of an unfinished work
@theotherwhybietoldmeso & @killerandhealerqueen .... I return (but at what cost) <( ̄︶ ̄)>
I aggressively scrolled down and picked the part it randomly stopped at so ,,,,
Law found himself far too focused on that last part. He hid it away, nodding.
Dammit. The less he talked about or to Eustass Kid, the faster and cleaner this would go.
They reached another door, this one cut into the length of the hall, and Heat pulled up.
"Give me a second to give Boss a head's up." He stopped with his hand on the handle and glanced at Law. “Dont need to tell me. I'll make it quick.”
Law didn't argue. There was no use rushing in if he was going to hit the roadblock that was Eustass Kid's idiocy. Faster to let his crew get it by him. They seemed to have a system for worming things into his thick head.
Bepo gave a nod of acknowledgement on Law's behalf, and Heat headed in, slipping through the door and leaving it open a slither.
“Oi, Boss.”
"There you are, Heat.” Eustass' voice was pitched far flatter than usual. Less grating screech and more deep tremors below the earth. Lower than Law had heard it all night but close to how he'd spoken when they had been, if he was generous, strategising to use their awakened powers to finally take down Big Mom. “Did ya track down a quack yet? He keeps drifting off."
"We’ve got one,” Heat said, “but you're not gonna like it."
Blushing slightly, Bepo glanced at Law. As though they were eavesdropping instead of waiting like they'd been instructed to.
Law zipped his jacket up further, bringing it to his chin. “You don't have to stay.”
Bepo’s face set, becoming painfully determined. “I’m not leaving you here alone, Captain.”
Law hid his smile on the opposite side of his mouth to what Bepo was standing on, letting the corner twitch up.
"I don't care who it is,” Eustass said on the other side of the door. “Get them in here. Killer's—"
"It's Trafalgar Law."
The silence was stark. A shockwave climbing out of an impact crater, or the remnants of a bare seabed after the waves had been dragged out by the hand of mother nature. Promising ruptured ear drums or terminal drowning if you didn't get far enough away.
Bepo turned his determination on the gap between the door and its frame. Apparently trying to scare off the tension leaking out.
Ignoring the urgency growing in his hands and the impatience in his sternum, Law tapped the toe of his boot on the floor.
“Trafalgar?” As always, Eustass pulled Law’s name apart with his teeth as he said it. The meat of it coming off the bone like something slow cooked.
Law ignored the usual spark it ignited in his gut and tapped his boot again. Getting worked up wouldn't get him through this without a bigger headache.
“Wire figured he was closest,” Heat offered.
Gonna tag @schwazombie and @lolacouldnotcareless incase they've got anything they feel like sharing (but no pressure, of course) (◠‿・)—☆
#weekend wip exposure club#unfortunately the k*dl*w agenda didn't blow out while i was away#i am v disheartened with my writing at the moment but we can't let the bad thoughts win#so doing this even tho im late and don't want to cause otherwise i just won't#and we'll spiral into the bad place and there'll be no hope for me next weekend ����#going with quantity over quality to make up for the weeks i missed asdfghjkll#ah. shit. wait. have i posted this scene before? impossible to know at this point. my brain is soup#oh my words#from the dark pit#taking myself out the back by the scruff of the neck and shaking myself#IT ISN'T MEANT TO BE PERFECT IT'S A WIP YOU'LL EDIT LATER CALM DOWN IT'S NOT THAT DEEP#(zombie if the world is willing and the creek don't rise im replying to your wonderful messages after my doggie's vet appointment today ✨)
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4 on the angst list with Araleyn please I need them to suffer
4 : "but it's my fault, right?" (prompt list here)
#<blinks> very gently implied angst i suppose. usually everyone makes anne suffer so for a change#here's catherine struggling with the idea that if she hadn't been so stubborn about divorce-#maybe it would have been more okay for henry to divorce anne instead of. yknow. chopping her head off.#gently implied angst with the. well. i hurt this person i care about. unintentionally. but still. hence also the historical counterparts bg#... i feel like this isn't suffering (italicised for emphasis) but unfortunately? i am in a more melancholy mood#and also coming to conclusion that whump isnt really my taste.. so quite literally you'd have to pay me to draw it .. dfdsghjkl comms open#anyways yeah i think the most you'll get from my own stuff is <reference to beheading> <mentioned death> <abstract reds that might be blood#six the musical#six the musical fanart#anne boleyn#catherine of aragon#pssst drew anne extra pretty bc coa pov. if you get what i mean.#oh that got off tangent. but also tldr; requests mean free art!! (also idm if you ask for specific things. like your own aus. just to put#that out there)#but also requests: 1. up to my creative freedom and discretion so you probs won't get exactly what you want + 2. no time limit so#can take literal years to reply to.#so ig ? if you have specific things in mind. that you want me to draw. commissions would be better for you if you'll pay!#but if you don't have the money i'm also. lowkey willing to draw for free.. stick it in the inbox .. there's just no guarantee you'll get it#within the next year.. or at all! but you may as well try your luck o.O#(this plan is terrible for business but because for a very long time i was unable to buy anything online. i sympathise greatly ig)
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i am itching to say something but it’s technically spoilers but siren venti Can talk, it’s just at. this moment in time they are trying to appear as nonthreatening as viably possible here (even if. this attempt didn’t go so well …)
#sirens are wonderful wordsmiths <3#i also don’t know if i ever explained why the bard is so afraid of them#and that is bc i Fully hc that the bard was hesitant around wispti too in canon#he doesn’t know what they are. what their purpose here is. who they are#like godbless 🙏 the bard can handle a lot of things and theyre more than willing to put up a fight#but when something is more myth than it is reality and facts he’s not testing fate here#so he’s erring on the side of caution and sucking up to them full time. like okay. cool. doing this now sure hope nothing goes wrongggg#unfortunately ven has plans and that includes: befriending#me when i talk about my silly little fic and my silly little headcanons#this Will be explained more in the second chapter i prommy But .#anyways <3 saying this now. because i felt like . if i published the spin off and people see ven talking it mightve been confusing oops !!!#HOWEVER .#no i am explaining that in the chapter i am Shutting Up now#lantern says stuff#the boy and the whirlpool au
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#tw suicide#idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT#i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone#and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess#but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm#but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing#hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse#to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house#and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like#to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age#but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me#also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently#tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me#i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship#but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation#i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself#and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons#most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks#idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear#this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly#sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point#and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have#the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona#so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem#anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope
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Question to non-crocheters:
Can you notice how many different stitch types are in this?
I ask because I'm using different stitches for certain parts of my tallit to stand out, but I'm curious how noticable it is to a relatively untrained eye, since I feel other crocheters might have a leg up over you - if you see any differences, I'm curious what you see!
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#tallit#this has (so far) taken me over eight hours which you still can't tell just by looking at the whole thing#this is a very zoomed-in picture to hopefully make ot easier to spot#unfortunately i am detail-oriented and i'm sure none of this will be vosible to most people especially when i wear it (g-d willing)#i always want an excuse to post this project. can you blame me. the cost alone is going to be absurd#this piece is about the size of seven whales (that are 90ft long). and i'm not even 10% done i imagine#americans will use anything but the metric system btw it's true <3#i'm just interested in how non-crocheters look at crocheted items because i now look at crocheted things WILDLY different#hell i even look at knit so differently even though i Don't knit. i look at all fiberarts different now though...#shalom crafts
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i followed you because i misread "zote" as "sozo"
HELP. Well. In all fairness I am also a very big fan of Sozo. And while the fic I wrote of him was not 130k words like the one for Zote was. Hey. Hey. I think 11k is close enough
#i feel if i call myself number one sozo liker in the world more people would be willing to fight me for that title than with zote#as many people Do Not Like Zot. but there is a fair amount of Sozo appreciation to be found#would put me in significantly more danger/j#but regardless I am So Sorry that I misled you . unfortunately I like two (2) bugs with the letter z in their name.#with thos names also each being four letters long. ignoring sozonius.#I see how that could be confusing sdhgKSHDGJH#ask
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do yk the folklore love triangle 👁️👁️
cardigan is my number one most played song of all time YES i know about the folklore love triangle
unfortunately i am a little pessimistic about it. im like the number one cheating hater i hope betty never takes him back 🗣️🗣️ also i think august lightly sucks as a person for being the other woman. STAND UP GIRL
also regarding folklore i am a true believer that half of those songs are about satosugu.
#it actually pissed me off that cardigan was so high HAHA#like i am a weeknd stan he accounts for over half of my overall top 50 highest listens of all time#unfortunately for mr. weeknd i did go through like a two month period where i listened to cardigan on repeat while doing work my freshman y#also as a folklore girlie i was devastated about the loss of like half of the folklore tracks from the setlist.#im sorry i am not a ttpd fan#i saw her in sweden and i would have paid been willing to pay double if i got to scrap the ttpd set and just replace it with like three mor#folklore songs#whispers heard ♡#georgina <3
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Hi, I wrote my first evak fic in early 2023, before that I had been an avid reader for years. I know the fandom is a little quiet but there's this hardcore group of writers and readers that seem to have been around since the start and all know (of) each other. I don't know how to word this without sounding envious but it seems to me that group doesn't really read, comment on, give kudos or support new fics outside of their little circle. I want to believe it's a time issue but I have to say it comes across cliquey and a little hurtful. I really hope I am just being an insecure baby but I would be so happy if the established and popular writers would give me feedback and leave comments.
hiya! congratulations on writing and posting! i know it can be a big, scary jump from reading to writing and sharing, so applause for that in the first place.
i'm sorry your contributions to the fandom haven't been received the way you'd like them to be. if i'm included in this group of writers and readers, then, well my reasons for not reading/commenting/supporting are possibly going to be more hurtful than what you're already experiencing! i've whined about it years ago (first here, then here), and unfortunately it all still stands, because i have done absolutely zero work on bettering myself as a human being. i think i've read a handful of fics, mostly because they've been sent to me directly, with someone asking for my thoughts, and i managed to put in the effort to read it and offer a polite response. but there are also a bunch of fics that have been shared with me that i haven't read, even when i've said i would. i'm sorry if you have specifically done this with me in the past, because i have not treated your work, your creativity, with the respect it deserves.
i can't speak for anyone else, on how they choose to spend their time reading or writing, or the relationships they have with other fans. on the one active skam discord i'm in, i think a lot of them know each other from other fandoms, or have different relationships beyond writing/reading skam fic. also, as skam fades, people might only have the bandwidth for enjoying and supporting fanworks from established relationships, the same way you still want to support a favorite author even when you or they have changed genres or whatever.
but in reality i don't know the group where this is happening or why. i agree, it would be nice to receive more readers and commenters in general, and being jealous of the attention other people receive is natural. but i don't know how to change your relationship with that group, or my relationship with reading & supporting.
#y'all should see the tailspin i am in right now#i do not like examining my own habits because they are so disappointing!#but there's the explanation for why i don't read#IF I AM EVEN INCLUDED IN THIS GROUP???#or am i just supposed to commiserate as an outsider? IDK#of course i automatically assume i am at fault#i do know that the fact that i don't read fic has pissed people off before#unfortunately pissing people off is not enough to change my behavior#as anyone willing to scroll through my asks on this website could tell you#but also you would not want my comments if i felt obligated to give them#and i think the people i've beta'd for would agree#i do not go into it as a fan#or as an appreciation#i go into it very defensively#which is a shitty relationship to have with art#anyway i am sorry that this is your experience and that i may be contributing to it#i do not have a solution for you#nor do i want to like.....guilt people into reading fic#and the way i cope with this#the way i coped with it back in the day when the fandom had more popular writers and reading groups#was by hiding#and lowering my expectations#i gave nothing to the fandom and i expected nothing from it#kerryrants#aka how i tag the posts when i'm being an asshole
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Whenever I see someone being transphobic on twt in a bridget thread i reply with three pictures of my mains: ky kiske from ac+r, ky kiske from rev 2, and ky kiske from strive.
it self selects for people who actually play the game. it’s canon that he’ll fight off transphobes with the blade. and if they actually played guilty gear they’d get the underlining messages
While it can be really funny to bully these guys back, please keep in mind that nothing you can say or do to these people will hurt them or waste as much of their time as what they say will stick with you or waste your time. It might be funny to send them a bunch of Ky pictures, but what they're doing is laughing that the only response the people they hate can give them is sending a bunch of pictures of anime boys.
The only thing that works is blocking them. They've turned being an asshole into a recreational sport and getting any sort of response in return is a victory for them.
#asks#Unfortunately I was an asshole on the internet once (not a vicious transphobe just a basic internet asshole)#I know exactly how these people function because I was there once...#When you don't take the person you're arguing with seriously it's very easy to laugh at every single thing they do#Which is what these guys are doing. It doesn't matter how well thought out the counter argument is. They don't care and they won't care#All you can hope for is that they're young and they grow out of it (I did)#I feel bad for them because I think about what led to me being like that decades ago. Are they going through the same thing?#I was like that because I was in a hopeless situation and hated myself and hated everyone else#People arguing back just proved my point that everything sucked and my hate was justified#It's an awful feedback loop. People being kind to me felt disingenuous. Why should they be kind? I hated them. They had no reason to be nic#I had to get to a point where I was willing to help myself crawl out of that pit before I let anyone else even get near me emotionally#I still remember the day when I realized I was being a fucked up little shit to everyone lol#Early June 2011. It was sunny with no clouds and there was a cool breeze. I was listening to In This Moment and I realized#'What the hell am I doing? Do I want to be like this forever? Get your shit together man'#It was a slow process from there but I did get out of it. Slowly. Very slowly.#There's a lot I did that I regret and can't ever apologize for because it was so long ago and the names and faces are gone now#Apologizing at this point would be selfish and only for my benefit anyway. I can only hope that what I did didn't hurt people permanently#Anyway. I've never talked about this on here before because it's the kinda shit that gets put on callout posts out of context#So. I am laying my naked soul bare and raw for the sake of underlining my original point: Internet trolls don't care
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raises my hand i actually like the concept of a shitty parent getting better i just hate when its used to be like "im good now so you should forgive me."
people grow and change and hurt people!!! and those hurt people deserve to move on without having to forgive their abuser!!!
#this is why i get defensive when ppl make all sorts of reasons why rhinedottir did what she did#if she killed dorian for being imperfect then whatever!! i hate her for that but you dont have to#not only does it go with her little mental break that she 100% had lets be honest#it also fits the “Perfectionist” thing that the sinners were trying so hard to achieve#it MAKES SENSE#even if its nuanced that doesnt make it ok!!! but at the same time i dont think shes 100% stuck to being a terrible person nor do i think++#shes always been a bad mother#i think she was a great mother before everything went downhill and honestly if she gained a sense of apathy towards her kids itd MAKE SENSE#ofc im not saying this is true. im just saying its possible and it doesnt take away from her as a character#elynas is just as reliable a source as albedo dare i say!!! he was not in a strange mindset bc he wasnt corrupt like durin#the way he described her was valid. so was albedos when he said she threatened to leave him.#if the trauma from the cataclysm is what caused everything#that makes sense#but its not an excuse and it doenst mean she had some extra hidden reason for what she did. sometimes people are bad people!!! clearly she+#did SOMETHING right with albedo because he has a sense of morality. but even so you can TELL shes not a good mom EVEN TO HIM#i dont know where im going with this im getting turned around UHM#TLDR; shes a terrible mother. and a pretty bad person. but that doesnt mean im saying shes evil without nuance#it just means what it sounds like#plenty of parents fucking SUCK without meaning to. whether she cared or not she was still a pretty bad mother. thats all im saying#im willing ot talk about her but im NOT willing to have people argue that any of her children deserved what they got.#not albedo and NOT dorian.#elynas to dorian to albedo is a great pipeline for her as a character. which is why i like to believe elynas came first;#alfisol and dorian came close to last#and then albedo came last long after the others#every character has nuance however i am allowed to dislike them despite that#tzu rambles#that said i understand how it comes off as biased when i only talk about her children but unfortunately her children are the only reason i+#know about her at all. thye are my favorites and my content centers around them </3
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